Sunday, May 24, 2009

An angel was born

Vayden James Stewart was born May 23,2009 at midnight. He weighed 4 lbs 15 oz and was 17 3/4" long. Vayden lived with us for 3 hrs 45 min, without any breathing support. We were so blessed to hear him cry, see him open his eyes and coo a lil. He was struggling but still strong. We miss him very very much but were so very blessed that he made it through a vaginal delivery and stayed with us for almost 4 hrs. God is Good. Vayden was 35 wks exactly. His in in heaven now, watching over his daddy, mommy and big brother Vashon. He was welcomed into nothing but love and he left with nothing but love. I will write soon with my birth story.






p.s. He looked just like Vashon when Vashon was born, however Vayden had 1 ounce on Vashon. Go Vayden!!!


















33 comments:

  1. Wow, I knew I couldn't get past this entry with out tears. He is beautiful! Your family is so amazing, may he continue to rest in Heaven, yet another reason to be a believer and go to Heaven.
    Many hugs

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  2. Oh, Stephanie what a beautiful baby boy. Truly an angel.

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  3. I am so blessed to have you in my life. You are such a strong, inspirational woman. Everything you do, you do with grace and class and an unshakeable faith in God. You are an amazing wife, mother, friend and all around human being. I am so happy you let me be there as a form of support during this time. I wish I could do so much more for you. I love you and Van and your angel on earth and your angel in heaven. I will always be here.

    With Love,

    Kristen Reaves

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  4. Stephanee,
    I know I have written this before but I want to tell you again. I am so proud of you and all you did for Vayden! Your love was the best thing in this world that he could be born into and surrounded by. I know that you and Van are grieving right now and are missing Vayden so much already. I pray that you will find peace in time and that in the mean time you will be gentle with yourself.

    You are a good mom! You have 2 beautiful sons. One here and one in heaven! Vayden is so beautiful and now he is completely whole! I know your prayers were that he would have complete healing either here or in heaven. I am so sorry that it had to be in heaven, but you know know that he will never be in pain.

    Stay strong Stephanee! We are praying for you!

    Sleep sweet baby Vayden, sleep sweet!

    ((((Hugs))))
    Kristin

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  5. Stephanee,
    I wish I had the perfect words to say. What a handsome boy. What a sweet gift to have been brought into the world with such love. I am so overwhelmed by this experience for you and Van and Vashon. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. You are such a wonderful Mom. You are an inspiration to so many people, and you are SO strong.

    I know God doesn't give us more than He knows we can handle, but this is asking so much. I am proud of you. Of your strenght and courage, and your ability to help your Vayden and the rest of your family through this.

    What a blessing that you got to spend almost 4 precious hours with your baby boy, and that you got to meet your Guardian angel.

    I love you & am praying for you and your family, and I'm in awe of the woman God is molding you into.

    Love,
    Mandy Wichert

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  6. This is the song we sang at church yesterday. It made me think of you and your beautiful baby boy. Hugs and prayers.

    I will come to you in the silence
    I will lift you from all your fear
    You will hear My voice
    I claim you as My choice
    Be still, and know I am near

    I am hope for all who are hopeless
    I am eyes for all who long to see
    In the shadows of the night,
    I will be your light
    Come and rest in Me

    Do not be afraid, I am with you
    I have called you each by name
    Come and follow Me
    I will bring you home
    I love you and you are mine

    I am strength for all the despairing
    Healing for the ones who dwell in shame
    All the blind will see, the lame will all run free
    And all will know My name

    Do not be afraid, I am with you
    I have called you each by name
    Come and follow Me
    I will bring you home
    I love you and you are mine

    I am the Word that leads all to freedom
    I am the peace the world cannot give
    I will call your name, embracing all your pain
    Stand up, now, walk, and live

    Do not be afraid, I am with you
    I have called you each by name
    Come and follow Me
    I will bring you home
    I love you and you are mine

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  7. Steph, what a beautiful little guy. I'm so glad you were able to have time with him. I'm sure this is an extremely difficult time for you and your family, but I just wanted to send my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

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  8. Love and Light, honey. You've been stronger through this than I have been with my pregnancy, and certainly stronger than I could have been in your shoes...truly an inspiration for times I have felt like the weeks just drag on. I can't wait to read your birth story. Peace and blessings to you and all your family.

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  9. Thanks for sharing such a precious life with us. He was absolutely georgous!! It is because of you and your husband that he had such an awesome life and touched so many.

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  10. Vayden was and is beautiful and perfect. What a gift that you had three+ hours with him. He fought so hard and wanted so much to live. He will always be with you.

    Love,
    Kelly

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  11. oh my gosh what a beautiful baby, looks perfect. so alert also, wonderful that you had that much time with him also. the photos are too precious, especially the first one the the airmans uniform

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  12. Wow this is beautiful - I heard about you from Lisa Fregien who posted online asking for prayers. Your pictures and blog are beautiful - your family is beautiful. I work with families often in sad situations like yours, I sell clothing for premature babies, and still I have to say you are an inspiration! Your love of Vayden and your very close loving family are just wonderful. Out of sadness and grief for a life that was too short, you have created something beautiful! Thanks you, I'm privileged to have read this.

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  13. Stephanee,
    This is Jennifer, MamaBethany from NowISleep.
    I've been following your blog, and was so surprized to see Vayden had arrived already! Oh hunny, I'm so sorry for your loss, but HE IS GORGEOUS and what a beautiful time you had together. You made all of the right decisions, honoring his life and giving him love, love, love. That's how he survived for 4 hours, you know....he was living on your love. I know how difficult it is to have been in that place. I'm praying for you and will continue to do so.

    Love
    Jennifer

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  14. What a beautiful baby boy. You must be so proud of him. May god be with you and your family through this difficult time. I am so happy you were able to spend precious time with Vayden.

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  15. What a beautiful little boy, and I love the outfit.
    Your family is in our thoughts and prayers.

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  16. I stumbled on your blog through a prayer request. I just wanted to let you know that I was so sorry to hear of your sweet little boy. He is so pretty!! I'm sorry that you must go through this loss in life. Don't forget that you have every mother in the world connected to you as another mother and we love our sisters and care for them! With my prayers for your family,
    Chloe

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  17. Vayden is so beautiful!!! I am so glad that you got those hours with him! Those moments you will certainly cherish! I will be praying for you in these days ahead. If you need to talk please email me at caring4carleigh@yahoo.com

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  18. I'm very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful well loved boy! For the short time he spent with you, he knew Love here on earth.

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  20. He is so cute! I loved his outfit! I'm so sorry for your loss!

    The book Safe in the Arms of God by John Macarthur really helped my husband and i after the death of our twins. We ordered a lot of them to give out to families going through what we went through and I would love to send one to you.

    My email address is vkdelgado@hotmail.com

    Still praying!
    Vanessa Delgado

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  21. what a beautiful little boy. God Bless you....

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  22. What a handsome little guy! Praying for you and your adorable family.

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  23. Oh honey, I am so sorry for your lose. I am praying for you and your family!!!!

    God Bless you

    Love-Hugs and Prayers
    Tiffany

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  24. We're sorry for the loss you've suffered. We'll be lifting you before the FATHER...every day.

    Our hearts are breaking reading your story. May HE give you strength through all of this.

    We will go ahead and add you to our Blog Prayer List (right column) and pray for you often.

    ~Blessings,
    Jan & Tom

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  25. Praying for you and your family.

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  26. Praying for you - your faith strengthens mine!

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  27. I found you through April Rose's blog.

    My heart aches for you and your family. We just buried our daughter Olivia 2 weeks ago, so our pain is still very fresh. Vayden is a beautiful boy & so precious in his little uniform! I am glad you got to look into his eyes, snuggle him & make some beautiful memories.

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  28. What a beautiful baby! Thank you for sharing your story.

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  29. Stephanie,
    I came over from April Rose's blog. You are in my prayers. My heart aches for you and your family. May God give you and your husband the strength to keep up the faith in Him. Vayden was absolutely gorgeous; you make beautiful babies. :) God bless you and your family.

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  30. By the way I was stationed at Tinker in '96-98. Small world.

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  31. Stephanie,

    He is PERFECT in every way! So beautiful, strong, handsome, precious!!!!! Let strength and faith carry you and your husband through this time. It's hard, it's challenging, it's sad, it's angry, it's unknown - but HOLD eachother and lift eachother up when the other is down!!!!

    For your son, there is a book called "We were going to have a baby but we had an angel insdead." If I had an extra one, I'd send it to ya! I think you can order it on line or from a Barns and Noble.

    Blessings friend,

    Linda

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  32. I couldn't read your blog without tears. What a touching story of life. You are a wonderful mother.

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