Saturday, October 9, 2010

Walk To Remember

Today was the annual Walk to Remember for the hospital where Vayden was delivered. This was my 2nd time attending since losing Vayden and I hope to continue to attend every year.

Van was unable to attend last years walk because he was deployed, so in his place my mother came into town to walk with me to remember Vayden. She was unable to come this year, and it was ok, because Van was going to attend until his TDY return date was pushed back at the last minute. I was beyond heartbroken at the thought of having to attend the walk alone, the MOST important thing needed while grieving a loss is support. I was prepared to go alone but definitely didn't want to. I posted about my bad news on Facebook and some of my dear local friends reached out to me offering to join me at the Walk to Remember. I have to say giving up a few hours of your Saturday morning to come out and show your support for my angel is an amazing thing. I am once again sure that there are walking angels in this world.

Getting ready for the walk I painted Vayden's foot print stamp and placed it on my face

At the Walk to Remember with Vashon and baby VJS3

Brenna (pink) and Desirre (white) are two AF wives that I've met just being at Tinker. These two girls are amazing and so supportive, I swear if they ever needed anything I would stop, drop and roll for them. They haven't even known me for more than a year and they came out and supported me and my angel like we've been long time best friends. Brenna actually also gave her time to stay at my house the day of Vayden's memorial service to watch all the kids, so the parents could attend and focus on the service. *Walking angels for sure.*

I met Erin through the OU Family Advisory Council, she's never lost a child, but her son Henry has an amazing story of HLHS. As soon as I posted about Van not being able to make it, she let me know that her and her family would be out at the walk. Again someone I haven't even known a full year lending her time and support to give me that huge smile I have on my face. If the world could only be filled with amazing people like this.

Here is a pic of Vashon and the pond wearing his "My little Brother is an Angel in Heaven" shirt with a stamp of Vayden foot print on the bottom of it.

So I did get a little emotional at the walk, maybe it's the hormones or the fact that Van couldn't be there, but as we watched each pebble make a ripple I saw a HUGE group of people wearing the same t-shirts preparing to take a group photo. It made me really miss having my family so close. I know that if this would have been in my home town we would have had the largest group, I know it's not about the size of the group but the love they all have, I guess I was just a little jealous of the support those two parents had.

At the end of the walk we took one last photo and it came out amazing and even though my group was small, and not my family, they mean so much to me and I am so grateful that they came out to show their support for our family and for Vayden.


  1. Hi! What great friends:) It looks like it was a beautiful day too.
    How far exactly did you walk in your condition? WOW! I'm impressed. I don't think I walked any more than I had to at that late stage! Your a trooper. I love the footprint stamp too. All of your children are precious!!

  2. You look so good! I'm beyond thrilled that you had some great friends to go with you to the walk. Vashon is growing so much and I LOVE Vayden's footprint stamp! I know today was emotional. Sending prayers & hugs to you.

  3. I'm so glad you got some support!

  4. I'm so glad you could do the walk and that your friends came to support you! Awesome friends!

  5. So nice you got to walk and have support too.


  6. Thank you so much for stopping by my blog today. I too am devastated for Tiffany & Dennis, it's just so unimaginable. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son and the grief your family has endured. I'm glad you had some amazing friends to walk with you at the remembrance event. Sending prayers to you as well, and hoping that things continue smoothly with this pregnancy.

  7. What a beautiful day...and such a special walk. Love the pictures...and lovvvvvve Vayden's footprint stamp. Awesome!!!!!