Saturday, January 23, 2010

Checking in 8 months later

I usually write more often but I've had terrible bloggers block. I post at least once a month on every heavenly month marker and today marks the 8th heavenly month that sweet Vayden has been gone. Still feels like yesterday but I'm already half way to a year and no where near the lifetime of missing my angel. I really don't have much to say, my grief has been pretty consistent which can mean a few things, I just hope a HUGE wave of sadness wont be coming soon. Every month of Vayden's memory date I do little things to honor him. I change my facebook photo to a picture of him, I write a blog post, and subconsciously our family just takes it easy and spends quality time with each other.

I am very excited for his 1st angel versary which may sound strange but I have so much going on that month with My Very Own Angel and I plan to honor the many accomplishments he's made in just one year. I do not expect that day to be sad, I plan to celebrate angel baby style.

*On a side note, in this last month I've caught the fever........ baby fever as I find myself not speeding through TLC's a baby story while flipping the channels. We've never been preventing but we have been family planning so after our cruise in March we will allow God to do what he needs to do and I will be able to shower and shave on those 3 no no days again. Just kidding :)

I also want to thank a dear follower and friend Sarita for sending my boys these so cute teddy bear pieces, with their birthstones and names on them (sorry for the picture quality but they are amazing) Sarita does not blog herself, but she does have an angel and she does follow many angel family blogs. Thank you Sarita

Happy 8th month in Heaven lil guy, you are still greatly missed.


  1. Happy 8 months in Heaven Vayden !!!! Thinking of you Stephanie and your family and praying for you always.

  2. As Vayden celebrates his 8 months with Jesus, I send hugs and love your way. I know you wish he were here. The beautiful things you have done to honor Vayden just emphasizes the big size of your heart.Blessings and love to all of you - Sarita

  3. Happy 8 months in Heaven Vayden!! I am excited too for Carleigh's 1st birthday! I definitely want to celebrate and not mourn, although I can't guarantee I won't cry a time or two. Who knows!! I've had bloggers block lately too. I just don't feel like I have much to say that hasn't been said on Carleigh's blog. And that's ok. Sending you ♥!

  4. You are such an inspiration for me. I just found your blog after becoming a member of 2nd/3rd sememster loss in babycenter. My name is Jada and I live in Louisiana. I lost my baby girl, Maya at 23 weeks. After trying for 5 years, I was able to conceive. I have significant fibroids and have recently made the decision to have them removed. With God and my family's support, I will undergo this surgery so I can give Maya a little sister or brother. Your strength is amazing. I will purchase a pink "Angel" T-shirt and wear it proudly. If anyone ask how many children I have, I say 1. I wish Thanks for giving me a place to visit when I'm overwhelmed. I can see some light after reading and looking at your pictures. Thanks you so much.


  5. Of course I meant to say trimester. I work at a university and that's how my life is segmented. Thanks again.

  6. Hi Steph,

    I think of you often. I haven't been in blogland in about three months now. I don't really have much to post on, and on top of that I'm working and going to school full time which really limits any free time. I've been missing Matthew a lot lately, it seems more so now that we are coming up on the one-year mark, which is coming up too soon.

    Love to you and your family,


  7. Happy 8 months Vayden. You are so, so loved.
    Hugs, Stephanie. the cruise sounds fun!

  8. Happy 8 month heaven day Vayden..tell Emily I love her ...thank you lil' buddy!
    Hoping to hear good news soon Stephanie!

  9. I'm late, but Happy 8 months to Vayden! I know his 1 year will be great, mine was!

    And I'm glad you got that baby fever girl!!

  10. Belated Happy 8 months in Heaven to Vayden! The little bears are lovely :)

  11. Happy 8 heavenly months, Vayden! Love and prayers for you, Stephanie!

  12. Dear Stephanie,

    I found your blog after a connection to your 'angel' site. We have some things in common. My name is Stephanie as well. My husband was in the military for 11 years. I a Christian. And I am 35 weeks pregnant with my sweet Amelia Rose, who has a condition incompatible with life here on earth. We await our sweet baby girl and hope to have some time with her before she reaches Jesus's arms. We recieved her diagnosis at 24 weeks, and have been making many preparations and memories. I realize that you only post monthly, but I was hoping that you could tell me the name of the song/artist "say hello before goodbye" that is on your slideshow.

    I too have recieved so much support and prayer from all over the world in our waiting time for Amelia. I already feel as if God has planted an idea on how I can give back to other mothers and fathers who have lost their sweet babies. I would like to talk to you about how to make this a reality as you have done with your inspiration. My email is

  13. I came across your blog through another's and I want to say how sorry I am for everything you had to go through. You are an amazing person and I hope to be as strong as you have been. It has been 5 weeks since we lost our sweet angel boy. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through! It gives me comfort in reading other's blogs and seeing how they have made it through this. I too know that with God's help and my new friends I can do it too.

    Thank you for sharing your story,

  14. Stephanie,

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. My friend Lisa sent me your websites a few days ago. She thought they may bring me some comfort and peace..she was right. I too have an angel baby. Her name is Grace. She went to be with our Lord on January 24th,2010 -just 9 days after she was born. I am trying desperately to cope with her loss. Our hearts are broken, as I'm sure you understand.
    Your story is incredible. I love the energy and love you poured into Vayden's beautiful life. We started a site as well when Grace was born but I haven't blogged since her funeral. After reading your posts, I wonder if it would be healing for me as well. Thank you! Thank you for sharing your love for your sweet angel with all of us. You are blessing many around you and may not even realize it.
    God bless you and your family!