Saturday, October 31, 2009

The Family Bed

My husband came back yesterday from his deployment a little early, it was perfect timing because I'd say 3 days out of the week I felt like I was going to crack. In our family Vashon sleeps in his own room and bed, but on weekends if he so happens to wake up in the middle of the night or we start missing him, he can come and sleep in our bed. We have the family bed at least once a week. I call Vashon "happy feet" because he moves his feet around when he's sleep, it's the most annoy thing in the world and he always targets my body. My husband loves having him in the bed and since he hasn't seen him in a few months we put Vashon to sleep in his bed and of course went and got him later to put him in bed with us. I laid awake with dancing toddler feet on my body and a snoring husband. At that moment I thought to myself "gosh it was nice..... "

Then I thought about The Family Bed, and I thought Vayden would be 5 months old now and although not big enough to sleep in the bed with all three of us, he would surely be able to spend a little time in there while we all lay awake. I saw my perfect, me and my 3 boys, then I thought about when I have another lil one, and if that baby so happens to be a girl. The outsiders looking in will see that as perfection. They will see a cute lil family, 1 boy 1 girl, and they will never know that my perfect was 2 kids, 2 boys and that I had that already, for 3hrs and 45min.

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  1. Steph, I just love you........you write and speak from your heart......You do have the perfect family and Vayden just happens to spend his time in God's Daycare waiting on you to come home someday....Nothing replaces Vayden...nothing, no child, no material item and I know you long for him and always will.....Please keep his memory alive and keep writing about this beautiful child! I never held him and never met him but through you I feel I know Vayden :) I know if I could have held him I would have cuddled him to no end......I am so proud of you....you have taken the most painful life experience and turned it into something helpful for the future families....I know you have been a blessing to me and Melissa....We all love you!

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  2. It seems hard for me to cry since my husband deplyed I guess i'm to stressed to cry. But as I read this today I cried Thank you for that it felt good. I can not wait to have all my family back in bed.

    Susan

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  3. SO true girl!! My little man would be 2 on November 7th. I know we'd be having some family bed nights too. And my oldest Miles does the same exact thing to me! He never kicks my husband, always me! :) I'm happy for you that your family is together now. XOXO

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  4. I love it when Kyndra sleeps with us even though we don't do it often. I love the closeness of her. She can be quite a mover too! I am glad that Van is back. So nice that he could come back early.

    It's hard because I want people to know that our family is more than what you see but I can only do small things like wear your tshirt or my jewelry but they have to be paying attention to even get it.

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  5. What a funny thing to read tonight...Greg and I were just talking about what we were going to do about presley sleeping with us when Parker gets here. When she sleeps with us her feet are in my face/neck and she cuddles Greg...so of course this doesn't bother him! As much as I need my rest right now...there is nothing I love more that her little arms around my neck to wake me up in the morning! She has the same routine..."morning mommy, love you so much, I need CHOCOLATE MILK!" On work nights when she gets up she says...daddy's at work..on weekends she says, "come on daddy...lets make pancakes!" We are so lucky to have these memories Steph! (Even if we are punching bags all night!) Love ya girl!

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  6. Thanks for sharing your blog on fb today. I cried when I read V's story.
    x

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  7. Oh Steph...my heart aches with you as I read this...

    Love and Prayers...

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  8. Very beautiful post. Sorry Vayden is missing from your family bed and our little co-sleeper from ours. (((Hugs))) to all the grieving mummas.

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  9. I too have "Happy Feet" that frequently climb into bed with me. hehe I love you Steph. I love your outlook on life. I love how you don't let adversity break you and how you keep your positive outlook. Yes, you might feel down for a short time, but you shake it off quickly and get back to your wonderful self. You are a survivor and I'm so proud to be your friend. Missing Vayden with you.

    Carrie LaFollette

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